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spent the day yesterday at a friend's house, writing by hand on
a big yellow tablet while looking out the window at a spring blizzard.
It's a new book idea, one that arrived suddenly and surprisingly
out of a conversation with an associate.
This
is the part of the process I most love, starting out. It's the most
like the pleasure I found in writing when I was twelve and fifteen
and nineteen, curled up in some corner of wherever I happened to
be, with a notebook in my lap and a pen in my hand, scribbling the
afternoon away while a storm raged or I baked in the sun. In those
days, before I understood ideas like "the market" or "royalties"
or even "copy editor," writing simply an extension of
my passion for reading: when I was bored, I could sit with a notebook
and make up worlds and run away into them.
Most
writers who come to the process as children or youths do come to
it like this: as readers hungry for another story. They write because
they can. Because it's fun. Because it's a pleasurable way to pass
a boring afternoon. It's a great way to learn to write, too--no
stress, no pressure about getting it right or comparing yourself
to some Other (unlike college writing programs, for example, where
there is often intense competion and a lot of conflicting information
about what is right and wrong about writing (and a lot of the edicts
have to do with what's in fashion at the moment)). A reader/writer
simply writes to see what will happen, and along the way learns
quite a lot by simply putting words, sentences, dialogue, descriptions
on the page.
If
you come to the process later in life, or end up writing for a living,
some of that shivery pleasure evaporates (though--speaking strictly
for me---I would say it's about five hundred million times more
fun than 99% of jobs on the planet). Most of us also have to have
teachers and/or mentors or programs at some point, too. All play
and no work makes Jane a self-indulgent writer.
But
it's still such a joy to fall over into the reader/writer place
on the odd writing day. It's most likely to happen in the very beginning,
as it was yesterday, when I filled half a fresh new yellow legal
pad with scribblings for characters. I wrote so long my hands were
achy, and I emerged only after several hours to realize that much
time had passed.
Tomorrow,
I'll take the copious notes for the new book and fashion them into
something readable for my agent to look at. It will be more like
work then. And that's all right, too.
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